Right now it means F-YEAH! because I don't have go to work (landscaping). I got to lay in bed and watch these really great legs in knee high socks and underwear. She's scrambling to catch the BART to work. I get to sit with hot tea while rain pelts against the window, and look over all the San Francisco houses smashed together in tight rows.
I watched this English movie called Imagine Me and You. Imagine if you married this really really great guy who was your best friend... but you were gay...... Hmmm. Anyways, the really really great guy I married and I promised to celebrate the bitter-sweetness of our separation by drinking a bottle of wine we'd bought in Italy. We'd been toting it around for the last 7 years, waiting for a special occasion to open it. I guess one could look at separating as a special occasion. "This is a testament to our relationship" he said smiling, holding up the dusty bottle, "sometimes its easier for us to abstain then to actually do things." We laughed. I took the big caste iron pan and he took the blender and coffee maker. We divided up the knives.
Summer onward was this big blur... something like stress and sadness layered over relief and being in love with this girl (adult female I should say). Her homeless, us moving into a cramped room, the house infested with fleas, both scrambling for work, not breaking even, my internet modem broke, my phone broke, her phone broke, her camera broke, her computer broke, mine is out of memory, my transmission went out, my car brakes failed, her car brakes failed, we biked only, 2.75 jobs each, night school, still not breaking even, flea bites, SLAG emails, not surfing, not skating, not writing, a really really pathetic yoga practice, trying to get health insurance, bike repairs, no money for the BART, separate bank accounts, coming out to family ("its never going to be the same again..." ...your telling me!), separate car insurance, AAA, really cheap groceries, and eating lots of brown rice and beans. (Also really nice picnics in the park btw.)
Now I have not only sugar, in the cupboard, but honey and maple syrup too! Life is amazing.
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